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FMA Drabble: Rain (Gen, Roy-Centric)

It took a while, but I finally was able to write something out. Hope you enjoy it!

Title: Rain
Genre: Angst, Introspection
Rating: PG
Warning: Spoilers for Ep 25.
A/N: .............


He stood before the still-new grey stone, wishing more than anything that he was somewhere else. Anywhere else. Anywhere but standing in this desolate green-yellow field of endings, the Lieutenant watching him with pity in her dark eyes. It was just the two of them now, everyone else had already left. Even Gracia and Alicia.

The scent of freshly dug earth... He hated it at that moment. Almost as much as he loathed the breeze that barely ruffled his slicked down hair-- for it was surprisingly warm given the time of year. So was the temperature of the air. Even the way the sun was shining was ideal, only a few degrees warmer and someone could almost hold a picnic. Disgusting. It was still supposed to be Winter-- It should not be nice out.

Especially not on this day.

It wasn't fair.

Roy Mustang thought that and continued to stare at the grave of his best friend, memorizing the words. Etching feel of it onto his heart, where it too could be used in the future as a tool.

He then, not even knowing why, spoke to Hawkeye. He spoke of Sin. She replied, and her voice was soft. The words that hung in the air between them felt almost meaningless. This despite the taboo nature of their content. If the Brass could hear them, they would both probably be arrested on the spot. Then executed or worse.

Out of the corner of his eye, Roy saw an almost-perfect white cloud float by idly. And was that a lone bird he heard singing? Really, it was far too pleasant out. It should be storming terribly right now.

Like it had been that one day.

That day, he sky itself had been crying. He could still remember the sheer fury of it... and of Edward's cries, screams, and accusations. The boy's voice had been haggard, his golden eyes wide and angry. Roy could still see it when he closed his eyes. Yes, even now the memory of icy rain being driven against his coat, the smell of ozone and blood, and the sight of bright red guts painted on a dirty alley wall remained as vivid as it had been yesterday.

That time, too, someone lost a dear friend. Only then that someone had not been him. He had been playing Devil, though it was for Edward's sake. He had to be the adult. Roy had been logical even as harsh sobs rang in his ears and two young boys lost yet another important thing.

The Fullmetal Alchemist had cried countless tears in that horrible alley. He always had been honest. It was one of Edward's weaknesses... but right now Roy envied it.

Maes deserved that sort of honesty, after all. Roy only wished he was able to give it to his friend.

Hawkeye made a questioning noise, taking a single step towards him. If he had been looking up, he was sure he'd see a rare look of concern on her face. But he didn't want to see it... He was looking elsewhere at the moment.

"It's beginning to rain."

"Ah," she said.

It was a lie, of course. It was a weak, damned, pitiful lie. But at the same time, wasn't it also true?

After all, he always had been useless in the rain.


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Jan. 16th, 2006 05:16 am (UTC)
After all, he always had been useless in the rain.

Oh my... that brings so much more meaning/depth to the rain statement, it makes it hurt just that much more.

♥♥ I'm glad you were able to write something!
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:35 pm (UTC)
Wow, thank you!

I'm glad you reviewed! I fee really bad and unsure about this drabble, and really am happy you enjoyed it!
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Feb. 14th, 2006 05:36 pm (UTC)
I feel weird about this fic still, so I'm really glad you enjoyed it! Thank you!
Jan. 16th, 2006 05:32 am (UTC)

i... i wibble at thee.

god i love symbolism. beautiful kyt. *goes to cuddle her imaginary roy plushie*
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:37 pm (UTC)
Yay for wibbles! :) Thank you. ^_^

I'm glad this crappy thing was enjoyed!
Jan. 16th, 2006 05:53 am (UTC)
Ouch... I have to agree with yuukihikari, the explanation you gave for that rain statement just... really made it more heart-wrenching. The entire drabble had a wonderful mood to it, emphasizing Roy's emotions in a very effective way.

The only real complaint I have is that I'm not sure I like the transition from his memory of Hughes to what happened with Nina. It works well, mind, and it does emphasize the mood a bit more... but I'm not sure if Roy would make the leap like that. Perhaps if he had emphasized Hughes's involvement first, at the moment where Hughes stepped in and Edward walked away from his problem, it might make a little more sense...

...which I don't think I am, at this precise moment. ^_^;; Forgive me. It really is an excellent drabble, and I'm glad to more ficcage from you!
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:38 pm (UTC)
Wow, thanks! :)

I'll look at the fic later (when looking at it doesn't make me feel pain) and see if I can tweak that part around a bit. Thank you!

I appreciate it!
Jan. 16th, 2006 05:19 pm (UTC)
That was wonderful, and if I had more time I'd gush over your brilliance. You know that I think you're brilliant, don't you? ;)
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:38 pm (UTC)

You are too kind! I'm glad you don't think it's as terrible as me and others think. Thank you! I'm happy you liked it!
Jan. 16th, 2006 07:01 pm (UTC)
Wow...that last line really made the rest of the story hit hard. Really nice, and sad.
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm really glad you liked it. ^_^
Jan. 16th, 2006 10:35 pm (UTC)
Ooh, ooh, ooh. T__T I should be happy that you wrote something (better off than me XD), but damn, this was sad. ;__;

The metaphor at the end was really nice, it wraps up Roy's emotions very well. n__n

...heck, the whole atmosphere of the drabble was excellent. ;D And I very much agree: It was still supposed to be Winter-- It should not be nice out. Though, of course, in a different context than Roy's meaning. ^^;;

Oh, and a spelling mistake that I caught:
That day, the sky itself had been crying.

That's all. ^______^ ♥
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:40 pm (UTC)
I still feel bad about this fic (I think it's awful) but I'm glad you enjoyed it. And that the concept worked.

*flushes a lot* You are too kind!

*fixes* Much appreciated!
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Feb. 14th, 2006 05:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you! *offers tissues and love*
Jan. 17th, 2006 05:50 am (UTC)
He always had been honest. It was one of Edward's weaknesses... but right now Roy envied it.

Maes deserved that sort of honesty, after all.

Oh, god. This was heartwrenchingly touching. And in spite of the fact that it's been ages since I first experienced Hughes' death in the series, reading fics like this still makes me teary. You've done the Roy!Angst so well. And it hurts just beautifully. Great job! ^^
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:41 pm (UTC)
Wow, thank you! :o You are too kind! I'm really glad you enjoyed it...!
Jan. 18th, 2006 02:28 am (UTC)
*cries softly*

Awww, that's just heartbreaking ;___; Poor poor Roy.

Fantastic fic Kyt!
Feb. 14th, 2006 05:41 pm (UTC)
*offers tissues* Thank you, Zal! *hugs*

I'm glad you enjoyed it!
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